sleep and snuggle tight...

pix1: ^ baby cot and snuggles

papa fixed up the baby cot today... it look so cute... this weekend, we'll be shopping for the mattress and bed sheet... the royal crib's almost ready for her royal highness...

the snuggles are from babysafe... made of 100% latex... the oval shaped pillow is molded to prevent flat head sybdrome, and the bolster is made with consistent softness and will maintain its form over time...

mommy and daddy loves baby... sleep tight, little one...

silent screams and lifeless struggles...

recently, i'm facing struggles as i battle the fight against my emotions and sanity... the plans that i thought had been ideal and feasible all this time are finally taking its toil on me...

i have to learn not to take things directed my way literally... on a clear mind, it isn't how it's meant to sound or mean... but in my darkest fear and paranoia, i can't help but listen to voice of evil... and let itself surround my usually rationale mind...

i need his pillar of support and his never-ending understanding and patience... only then, perhaps i can get out of this bottomless pit...

i want to be the best mom i can be to my child... and defensively but rightfully, i want no other to take my place... no matter how better a mom she is than me... no matter how long a mom she has been than me... no matter who's mom she is to me... i am what i am made to be for my child...

rub-a-dub-dub... see my new blue tub!

pix 1: ^ bath tub

papa and i went shopping this evening... and decided to get the ideal bath tub that we've eyed on before... this was the last piece, but it was on sale... and comparing with other tubs we saw, this had a built-in backrest for easy handling of baby whilst in the water... the green parts of the tub are non-slip rubber material that helps 'hold' the baby in place... at least for a while... there's a small holder to place shower foam and sponge...

ribbons, bows and yummy clips...

pix1: ^ ribbons and bows and yummy clips

check out the bow ties that were recently acquired... the colours are so yummy, right? cousin natalie has a set too...

s..t..r..e..t..c..h..e..d..

pix1: ^ yes, they weigh like dumbells...

this was taken over the weekend at bintan... and yes... my boobs do look like they're gonna dingle dangle dongle down to my legs... i look like a cow... i better have the milk supply of a cow, man... it isn't an easy task keeping them where they are... *heave ho* they're like... part of the kilos i put on over the months... the other kilos go to the butts... and it doesn't include the 1kg from gur gur... hahaha!

mommy looks good...

pix1: ^ yummy me

yup... i don't exactly look fat in this pix... but trust me... i am really, really h-u-g-e... but then again... i eat well, i sleep well, and boy, do i feel better than well... i love my big me!

i know i'm probably gonna have a tough time getting rid of the excess weight and mass... but... let the future worry for itself... i'm gonna enjoy my present day!

i'm a happy yummy mommy!

tweenky toes!

pix1: ^ jazzy toes in mary-janes

they're finally here... gur gur's jazzy toes... aren't they cute... awwwww... can't wait to put them on her teeny weeny feet...