the final lap...

34 more days from today... and then i'll be seeing her finally... i hope she comes on schedule and not early or later... i'm so scared... i wonder if she'll like me... or even get used to me... or recognise me... i wonder how my labour will start and where i will be... *gulp*

gur gur's making herself felt more nowadays... she'd go and roll around, pushing my tummy as much as it can stretch... last night, she was awake at 0245hrs rolling around... i think i'm gonna have a hard time with this scruffy little mouse... she's a night rat! sigh... she's scrumbling and tumbling and rumbling and frumbling and bumbling around as i write now... *tsk tsk... naughty little girl...*

her stuffs are more or less prepared... but i haven't had time to do more... wash her clothes, prep her room nicely... i thought it's still early and i don't want her stuffs to turn dusty by the time she comes home... but i guess i'll settle her clothes first =)

the bags that bagged my big bag heart...

yes... i'm a sucker... but they're so pretty... and a great buy too!!! there is absolutely no limitations on how many baby bags should a new mommy have... don't listen to what people say... what do they know =p

pix1: ^ kate spade small coal

this is a gift from ah yee... she's got one for herself too (see!!! and she's a mommy of 2!!! hiak hiak hiak)... mommy's already prepared this as her hospital bag... gur gur's going-home rompers is already inside...

pix2: ^ kate spade rubber tote (in lemon yellow)

it's suppose to be in bright lemon yellow but i can't find the pix anywhere =) itsn't it 'beachy'? a little heavy on it's own, but i don't care! =) it's waterproof and it gives a very sunshiney feel when carrying it... i even have an extra bounce when i walk *muahahahahahaha*

pix3: ^ kate spade chattanooga benjamin

this is mommy's gift for myself... it's a diaper bag and comes with a pretty and useful changing mat... the color's even suitable for papa if he carries it for mommy... ;p

so... here you are... my deepest, darkest, most evil recent indulgance =) that wasn't so bad, right... hehe... and yes... definately much much more to come...

counting down...down...down...

pix1: ^ can you see my ears?

gur gur's getting big... she's now 1.92kg!!! ah... so now i know where the weight goes to (pun intended, heh heh)... we did our final detailed scan last friday... halfway through, she gave the radiologist a huge kick! hiak hiak... it's like she scored a goal! =p i'm at my 30th week... 10 more or less to go... *gulp*

papa and i went on a shopping spree during the weekend... collected the cot, ordered the mattress, went to ikea to buy the decors... toileteries and all... wow... if only we can do this everyday...

my haemoglobin's a bit low... it dropped a bit since last visit... sigh... i need blood like dracula does... gimme gimme blooooooooooooooood...

we've got a bit more names figures out for gur gur... just gotta match her face to the nicest of them all... now just left the chinese name... hmmm...

oh... mommy's watching hwang jin yi now... and gur gur likes the music... she 'dances' when it's played...

muaks muaks little one...

sleep and snuggle tight...

pix1: ^ baby cot and snuggles

papa fixed up the baby cot today... it look so cute... this weekend, we'll be shopping for the mattress and bed sheet... the royal crib's almost ready for her royal highness...

the snuggles are from babysafe... made of 100% latex... the oval shaped pillow is molded to prevent flat head sybdrome, and the bolster is made with consistent softness and will maintain its form over time...

mommy and daddy loves baby... sleep tight, little one...

silent screams and lifeless struggles...

recently, i'm facing struggles as i battle the fight against my emotions and sanity... the plans that i thought had been ideal and feasible all this time are finally taking its toil on me...

i have to learn not to take things directed my way literally... on a clear mind, it isn't how it's meant to sound or mean... but in my darkest fear and paranoia, i can't help but listen to voice of evil... and let itself surround my usually rationale mind...

i need his pillar of support and his never-ending understanding and patience... only then, perhaps i can get out of this bottomless pit...

i want to be the best mom i can be to my child... and defensively but rightfully, i want no other to take my place... no matter how better a mom she is than me... no matter how long a mom she has been than me... no matter who's mom she is to me... i am what i am made to be for my child...

rub-a-dub-dub... see my new blue tub!

pix 1: ^ bath tub

papa and i went shopping this evening... and decided to get the ideal bath tub that we've eyed on before... this was the last piece, but it was on sale... and comparing with other tubs we saw, this had a built-in backrest for easy handling of baby whilst in the water... the green parts of the tub are non-slip rubber material that helps 'hold' the baby in place... at least for a while... there's a small holder to place shower foam and sponge...

ribbons, bows and yummy clips...

pix1: ^ ribbons and bows and yummy clips

check out the bow ties that were recently acquired... the colours are so yummy, right? cousin natalie has a set too...