counting down...down...down...

pix1: ^ can you see my ears?

gur gur's getting big... she's now 1.92kg!!! ah... so now i know where the weight goes to (pun intended, heh heh)... we did our final detailed scan last friday... halfway through, she gave the radiologist a huge kick! hiak hiak... it's like she scored a goal! =p i'm at my 30th week... 10 more or less to go... *gulp*

papa and i went on a shopping spree during the weekend... collected the cot, ordered the mattress, went to ikea to buy the decors... toileteries and all... wow... if only we can do this everyday...

my haemoglobin's a bit low... it dropped a bit since last visit... sigh... i need blood like dracula does... gimme gimme blooooooooooooooood...

we've got a bit more names figures out for gur gur... just gotta match her face to the nicest of them all... now just left the chinese name... hmmm...

oh... mommy's watching hwang jin yi now... and gur gur likes the music... she 'dances' when it's played...

muaks muaks little one...

sleep and snuggle tight...

pix1: ^ baby cot and snuggles

papa fixed up the baby cot today... it look so cute... this weekend, we'll be shopping for the mattress and bed sheet... the royal crib's almost ready for her royal highness...

the snuggles are from babysafe... made of 100% latex... the oval shaped pillow is molded to prevent flat head sybdrome, and the bolster is made with consistent softness and will maintain its form over time...

mommy and daddy loves baby... sleep tight, little one...

silent screams and lifeless struggles...

recently, i'm facing struggles as i battle the fight against my emotions and sanity... the plans that i thought had been ideal and feasible all this time are finally taking its toil on me...

i have to learn not to take things directed my way literally... on a clear mind, it isn't how it's meant to sound or mean... but in my darkest fear and paranoia, i can't help but listen to voice of evil... and let itself surround my usually rationale mind...

i need his pillar of support and his never-ending understanding and patience... only then, perhaps i can get out of this bottomless pit...

i want to be the best mom i can be to my child... and defensively but rightfully, i want no other to take my place... no matter how better a mom she is than me... no matter how long a mom she has been than me... no matter who's mom she is to me... i am what i am made to be for my child...

rub-a-dub-dub... see my new blue tub!

pix 1: ^ bath tub

papa and i went shopping this evening... and decided to get the ideal bath tub that we've eyed on before... this was the last piece, but it was on sale... and comparing with other tubs we saw, this had a built-in backrest for easy handling of baby whilst in the water... the green parts of the tub are non-slip rubber material that helps 'hold' the baby in place... at least for a while... there's a small holder to place shower foam and sponge...

ribbons, bows and yummy clips...

pix1: ^ ribbons and bows and yummy clips

check out the bow ties that were recently acquired... the colours are so yummy, right? cousin natalie has a set too...